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Sunday, 27. October 2013

A good bloke died today

Sunday, 27. October 2013

The wonderful world out there…

Friday, 15. March 2013

For every conversation, we each have a different purpose. In all there is usually an element of: debate, display, control, aggression, submission, desire, dishonesty, conflict, the desire to triumph or destabilise, and so on… Rarely do the real treasures of our humanity enter ins small doses: compassion, fascination, cooperation, love, empathy, exploration, forgiveness, and so on. So whatever anyone says that tries to restrict the definition of a debate, conversation, small-talk, bullying, whatever… is generally neither accurate nor helpful. And not until you see the richness/complexity of human interaction, even the most boring, is your opinion or account of your feelings of any weight. Some people speak in a restricted code and are tuned to only a couple of channels; some people use subtle and elaborate codes and pick up experience on many wavelengths. The problem with disembodied internet contact is that it isn’t always obvious what kind of entity you are dealing with, not until you can provoke them to reveal their true colours, which is what I try to do. People who just “like” everything and count their “contacts” are obviously a very limited type of life-form and likely to get vicious if pushed.

Projection and how The Entity misuses it

Tuesday, 23. October 2012

The psychological concept of projection, as we are all well aware, is the theory that as a defence mechanism the ego will throw up accusations against the world and others which are in fact attributes of its own state of being. So, for example, someone who is a bully will call me a bully. Someone who feels superior will say I act superior. This concept originated in a primitive form with Freud but has become a commonplace of coaching ideology in recent times.

As you probably don’t realise, coaching ideology is a way of manipulating a “client” (patient/victim/friend) by locating their supposed “problems” and then narrowing down their intellectual and emotional choices to the point where they are forced to generate positive objectives. This doesn’t help the client but with luck it will earn money for the coach/mentor/therapist/leader/teambuilder who has mastered any type of similar methodology from constellations to the borderline of psychotherapy. In most cases this protagonist believes in their own coaching methodology, believes that they are helping people, gets a kick out of the positive buzz of being a saviour and a know-all and thoroughly relishes the feeling of being wise (or superior if you like).

Alas there are embedded among us a huge number of such people these days, sporting all kinds of subtle flavours in methodology from coloured light therapy, through physical therapies to CBT and even hypnotherapy-based methodologies. These techniques are also used in sales, MLM, team building, business gee-up sessions, training courses, etc. In fact they are so ubiquitous that we have all unconsciously adopted such ideologies and the language that goes with them. Indeed people use this pschobabble every day to have a go at me when I never give up on my critique of human perfidy and stupidity.

I can see it coming, of course, so it doesn’t even touch me emotionally, but many people would shrivel up when kick-butt experts start undermining them in subtle ad hominem attacks. Many people would get angry if people called them bullies or accused them of acting superior.

I never call anyone a bully, nor do I ever try to belittle them with coaching-based advice, nor do I ever start moaning that someone is acting superior to me and being oh so horrible. Never.

I just keep churning out the irony and any intelligent reader can see at once is that when I proclaim “my genius” it is a satire upon the arrogance of the kick-butt entrepreneurs who behave with effortless entitlement all day long, trotting out their half-baked mix of crude economics, fantasy positive thinking and manipulative coaching terminology. Some of them also claim to be either wise and caring, saintly even, or very precise, knowledgeable, rational and thus never in the wrong. Some of them claim the clean hands of the perfect liberal with no impure thoughts or prejudices. They usually know all the answers, obviously and can’t resist joining threads that ask for wise advice.

Obviously it is all a sham, a mad and dangerous cesspit of deception that spoils any chance of people either being genuine or relating in a genuine way. It’s a whole raft of social madness that cannot be cured and is made worse by the cancers within social networking.

Just thought you should know. And next time someone says I’m a bully or superior or projecting or whatever you will understand what they are doing. Forgive them, please because they do not know.

I for my part believe the space of existence should be shared equally by everyone in the room, on the network and on the planet. This is hardly elitism. I talk to tramps in the street and patiently try to unravel the needs of garrulous old ladies on the verge of mania. Clearly I am inferior to Shakespeare, Galileo, Bob Dylan and countless others who have achieved great things.

I am, however superior to that which I am superior to in the respect that I am superior to that thing. No one is better than I at pointing out that the emperor’s new clothes are a sham..

I believe that we should all start being real about who we are. I know my faults. I am lazy, judgemental, critical, grotesquely committed to my physical survival and terrified of another cancer. I can’t be bothered with logic and facts and I don’t waste any time on pompous assholes, even though they do deserve a chance…
I also know my good points, which you don’t because you are blinded by what in me annoys you and challenges your world.

If you ever get to know yourself really well you will understand all this and give up trying to pretend you are sufficient unto whatever life throws at you, equipped for any situation, powerful enough to implement innovations and solutions and wise enough to help people change. All that is illusion and everything will be swept away by either your first heart attack or the moment the doctor tells you the tumour is malignant.

That’s all I really want to say in response to the frequent attempts to undermine my peace of mind by people who have no idea what they are doing or why, no idea who they are, who I am or what they are superior or inferior to, what they bully and what bullies them.

The instant I see genius I acknowledge it wholeheartedly. I am not jealous of other people’s brilliance, you see, just weary of their hopelessness and cruelty. I wish everyone were as brilliantly good and innovative as they think they are; then the world would have no problems at all, would it?

Part 2

When I first heard the concepts I now use and have tried to set out in this introduction it was 1981 and I was 32. I’d survived my two cancers but I’d been sacked from the only job I’ve ever had for medical reasons. My first love had left me for a millionaire with a farm. All traces of youthful arrogance/optimism had been wiped out and I was depressed, I admit. Luckily this left me wide open to new ideas and I embraced them. I have spent the last forty years trying to refine and communicate them. What I wrote above is almost a clear version apart from the usual pollution with my personal concerns, which is a big fault of mine. I’m too feeling and not thinking enough.
Anyway, the central idea is that what is nowadays called The Ego, that I sometimes call The Mind, an imperfectly described (theoretical) Entity is in charge of the average human being, totally. It determines what they think, what they want, how they feel, how they react and who they are. It takes over the being, personality, soul, whatever it is we think they are. It’s primary purpose is to defend itself, not the person it infests. It will do this even if it harms its host. It changes every memory and perception and thought and even so-called logic in order to always come out on top, to “be right” as the Americans say. This is the invisible enemy that I am always attacking in everyone. This is what all my threads are about, all my endeavours and observations and cunning tactics and ironic quips. I am, quite simply, trying to dislodge the stranglehold of The Entity in as many people as possible.

We all have The Entity But, our own version within us and when it feels attacked it retaliates with aggression. This may be covert, as in the patronising remarks that infest all my threads from people who want to challenge my insistence. It can even by actual aggression, calling names, threatening, throwing tantrums, breaking agreements, telling lies to others, trying to cause harm, getting someone chucked out of Last Thursday, whatever. In many cases, with sophisticates, The Entity pauses and resets itself when it encounters serious opposition such as the opening to this thread. Usually it comes back later with satire, with ad hominem attacks and even with nit-picking “logical” and legalistic arguments. We may see this later in this thread but we certainly often see it.

All these Entities have taken what I am saying personally. That is not the human thing to do. The human things to do would be to free yourself from your Entity and say “Thanks for telling me that, Steve. I can see what you mean. Maybe I can try choosing who I am instead of being a robot machine that tries to look good all the time.”

This rarely happens, but the massed Entities sometimes tire of attacking and give up for a while, looking for an opportunity for revenge later. This is tiresome and emotionally strenuous for me, as it has been for everyone who has ever appreciated the truth I am talking about and generously attempted to undertake the dangerous task of sharing it with other human beings, so that they too may free themselves from having to play a part that makes them sick with stress and emotional failure, because it isn’t who they are. It is just an Entity. The body snatchers have invaded and sometimes I feel like screaming it so that people will notice. Often, when I hit the mark there follows stunned silence as the Entities try to ignore what they cannot defeat.

That’s what happens.  I’m not special. I’m not trying to put anyone down or be superior. I’m just a messenger, fortunately equipped to deliver this complex message. I shall keep on doing it till the day I die.

Part 3

I forgot to tell you about the most subtle defence of all that The Entity can put in front of any chance of learning anything discomforting: it pretends it knows it already.

I have a friend who does this in a whining voice tone and has been doing that for the last 45 years; he can always quote some Ancient Greek, oriental or Rabbinical source from thousands of years ago that discovered this thing long before I did and of course passed it on to him. He says this as if he is complaining about me being so arrogant as to ever tell him anything. I never ask why already knowing that his very being is controlled by an Entityhasn’t changed anything about him in 45 years and why Freud only a century or so ago and a very learned bloke, had no clear idea about the role of the Entity, nor of course did Shakespeare, not unless you stretch the text a lot, as some people may well try now to prove me wrong…

No, the most common sort of “I knew all this already” response is smug humour. Laugh it off. Toss it off. This is very common online where they don’t have to face to face as it were. They find it entertaining. I deleted one earlier in this thread in fact but I also left an example for you to see… It works by taking everything away from the point while dismissing it as common knowledge and avoiding the need to address anything I said whatsoever. It must be effective and convincing for these people; it must enable them to believe they have accounted for the threat to their Entity.

So, there we have it: two last resort responses: 1) what right have you, troll/bighead/bully/madbloke. what right have you to be telling something that was common knowledge millions of years ago and that I knew all along, and b) that’s a laugh, nutter/bully/arrogant/ bully/whatever… that’s real funny and I already knew it and watch me magically change the subject by vaguely trying to upset you and turning it into a personal thing that I know I can always win because I don’t really engage with anything except winning by being right all the time. Very American, that one, but, as I say, common here on eek and obvious across northern Europe as well.

I call these two Entity defences the angry and the smug, the crushing and the mocking. As I said, The Entity will do anything to win: it will cry and complain; it will threaten and crush; it will mock and undermine; it will look straight past you at parties and sulk in your relationship. The Entity will even make itself sick, addicted, accident prone and unhappy to be right, which is truly amazing. It will even, in extremis, take its human host to suicidal behaviours, just to be right about everything that went before.

When people talk about “other” Entities they may be on to something but mistaken in the detail. There is only one Entity infesting each human, but it can have many faces and behavioural tricks. Religion, economic growth, optimism, coaching language, bullshit logic, learnedness, smug buffoonery, feminist protest, Third World moral superiority, machine guns and torture chambers… anything and everything can be adopted by any given Entity to reach its goals and in some cases they take over huge corporations or entire countries to render themselves invincible and beyond criticism. Sometimes they try to own the means of free speech or subvert it or subject it to Stalinist Terms & Conditions. There is no end to the versatility of The Entity and there are no exceptions. It infests everyone. Always has and for the foreseeable future always will. One person cannot escape alone. One group cannot escape without radicalising every single thing that anyone in the group thinks and feels and does. One person cannot resist the poison of an ideology that each Entity will use to convince its host that it knows everything (religion, IQ, EQ, wisdom, knowledge, optimism, self-belief, wealth creation, personal charisma, creativity, refined taste, saving the world, being a saint, knowing about loads of important stuff… whatever – any ideology mixed with lifestyle choice that drives the car and keeps Me, the Entity in hiding, on top).

So the “I already knew that” Entity defence is utter BS. So is the I am too wise to need this option and the I am upset at you talking to me like that strategy… and so it the one deployed above a couple of times “this is very interesting so let me show that I’m above it by expanding the discussion in a new direction...” All strategy to protect an Entity. People who are on purpose stick to the point, enjoy the opportunity for revelation, show gratitude for knowledge and a willingness to accept change if it ever comes. You cannot make it happen, though; that’s another Entity lie: the myth of willpower and the magic of imagining, visualising, constellating, wanting, the nonsense of The Secret and all this optimism hysteria we read every day online etc. If it weren’t daft it would be dangerously insane.

…All Entity driven, always; its only purpose being to make the human host happy about being possesed by an Entity. If you’re on top of life and you get all hysterical about it then The Entity owns you utterly. Very common indeed on the internet.

As I say: no exceptions; no escape; The Entity is literally a possession phenomenon. You cannot drive it out. Your only chance is to recognise it and keep on staring it down in yourself, for years, decades, maybe generations… You can pass knowledge on to children to allow them to evolve and mature faster than you did.


Monsters, all of us…

Thursday, 13. September 2012

We are all monsters, sorry, we are all possessed by something monstrous, our minds. They make us into monsters. If like me you admit this and don’t mind showing it, you will be thought of as a bad person and reviled. But my war is not against the individuals I have a go at. My war is with the toxic sentiments and ideas that have taken over their brains and their souls. It’s nothing personal. Any wise person would immediately realise this.

The people I am supposedly “demeaning” are not the ones you see. They are the awful creatures who have taken over the lives in place of what those people could be. I make no apologies. The monsters deserve no respect. They have to die so the people they possess can break free. They are body snatchers and shape shifters.

It’s like exorcism, if you like. And the “demons” fight back, unpleasantly.

Why you are only a drone…

Thursday, 13. September 2012

This is a subtle one, so hold on tight. You are not as “creative” as you could be, nor anywhere near as creative as you think you are. And there is a good reason for this. It applies to absolutely everyone without any exceptions so you needn’t feel bad about it. It would help you, however, to know why your creativity is so limited.

Because it scares you. Because you cannoy tolerate uncertainty and chaos. They make you uncomfortanble. You feel you are failing if you don’t get the right answer. This is how they trained you at school and it persists at work as an adult.
You go to meetings. You face decisions. You take what you call risks. Only you don’t. You fall back on safety, on variations of what you have seen work before, on stuff that some gurus promises you will work, on the techniques you learned at some training course, on what will gain you approval and promotion and income.

Truly creative people, those who conjure something from the swirling chaos of impressions, memories, observations and realities that constitute our world, they can bear the fear. They can stand to be confused. They don’t mind being wrong and looking stupid. They never give up and they aren’t trying to look good or manufacture agreement or popularity or even approval.

It is unlikely that you will ever be one of them. Maybe ten in a million make it anywhere close and none of those will be neutralised by self-doubt and peer pressure. You are a drone, probably a higher level drone with more refined routines available, but a drone nevertheless. Your thinking is ultimatrely hive-bound and the internet will make this situation far worse as we “evolve” towards mass agreement in clouds of idiots, reacting before they think.

The crowd is never right. It never can be. It has no magical knowledge. The only thing that separates us from primeval slime is the few brave people who speak with true hearts no matter what. And you, the drones, almost always crucify them.

If this does not apply to you then there’s no need to get indignant, is there. If you really are creative I love you.

Less brain is better brain (it surprised me too)

Wednesday, 16. November 2011

I’ve now had enough distance between myself and the eight lost days I spent in intensive care this Autumn alongside the guy who got mauled by a polar bear. At the time I was aware of nothing because I was in a long, morphine induced dream, interrupted only by occasional spoonfuls of food and moments of joy as I saw Cora appearing in front of me. The fact that she often sat with me for many hours did not register at all.

Anyway, whatever they give you for the pain and of course the anaesthetics for the heart surgery, these things take a long time to dissipate, possibly many months more before they’re totally gone. And there are the days of carbon dioxide poisoning known as acidosis to factor in…

Result: hard to say but some of my memory has gone, meaning that for an average thread like this I need to pause for a word to come of use a different word or even resort to a Thesaurus – whereas previously I was a Thesaurus, better than the one in the spell checks. Plus there are other signs: more fatigue; less worked up about things; less immediacy….

In all I would say I’d lost between 10% and 15% of my total mental ability and concern for intellectual outcomes.

But, strangely, it feels better than things were before. I get less impatient. I don’t care so much when people don’t get what I’m saying. The text I’m producing for my novel flows slightly better and seems easier to follow.

In short: being slightly more stupid may be better than being super intelligent. In all kinds of ways: human-wise, in communications, for emotional peace.

Burning brightly little stars

Tuesday, 28. July 2009

(Copied from my post on Ecademy – this was a set of statements and questions to them, not to you; please comment – I think it’s a serious insight.)

I’m being burned by the brilliance of so many brightly perfect radiating stars. That’s what online networking has done: it has polished, sharpened, brightened and rendered more abrasive what used to be called the “personality” so that now one seems to be locked into a dream-world with entities who are more than human, more than brands even – so clever, so organised, so wise, so “solutions driven”, so planned, so witty, so neat looking – that it hurts to be around them.

That’s what has happened in the last 3-4 years. We are changing what it means to be a person as we transmit our carefully fashioned words and images across cyberspace and have them picked up, redoubled, dumped on the screens of imaginary “contacts” who are all doing the same thing. Can you remember a time when your ego didn’t have the tools to feed a vast imaginary audience, when a few jokes and and a slight nervous tick was all you had in social situations, before you became a superhero…

Such a contrast when you actually meet people in “real life”.

Originality Quiz

Sunday, 28. June 2009

Q1: do you have the daily experience of experiencing your own thoughts as unique and original? Y?/N?/DK

IF YES: what external evidence is there of this feeling?

IF NO: why not?

IF DK: award yourself one honesty point

Q2: is it essential to be unique and original? Y?/N?/DK

IF YES: what external evidence is there for this opinion?

IF NO: why not?

IF DK: award yourself one honesty point

Q3: how much grief do you get from pretending to be unique and original? lots?/none?/DK

IF LOTS: could you give it a break and just be you for a while?

IF NONE: what damage does your performance do to other people, then?

IF DK: award one honesty point

Q4: are you honest about things like this? Y?/N?/DK

IF Y: deduct all honesty points and take a cold shower

IF N: accept 3 honesty points

IF DK: please take a break from acting the innocent

Ludicrous but not really true

Saturday, 20. June 2009

1. The Deer Botfly - listed in every book including the Guinness Book of Records as the fastest creature on earth but it wasn’t…

The stuff we are led to believe, honestly. Next thing you know we’ll be believing that parliamentary democracy exists to enfranchise the poor or that the stock markets are a way of investing in enterprise…

Whereas in fact democracy was devised to protect the rights of the third tier of parasites against rapacious royalty and nobles – and the stock markets have become a giant online game whereby a new kind of parasite gambles away our common wealth to enrich themselves.

When I post stuff like this on other forums I get a whole slurry of Brown Stain Networkers telling me to grow up but at last I’m free to say it.


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